copy/paste 12.29.06 – 1.20.07

January 20, 2007 – Saturday

Driving home from Lemoyne

As I was driving home from Lemoyne, yesterday, to our home on the East Shore, I came to the four way red-light just over the bridge into New Cumberland. I was in the lane to turn left and stopped because the light was red. The opposing traffic got a green light first , while I waited. But the opposing traffic didn’t move. Insteadm the guy in the car opposite started waving me through. But I couldn’t go. I had a red light. He still did not go but grew more and more adamant in his waving. But, I couldn’t go, I still had a red light. He waved and waved, unaware that the light had not chnaged color beacuse it was above him, where he could not see it. He waved and waved, but if I had gone, I would’ve broken the law. I could’ve gone and just to appease the guy who had no clue. He would’ve felt good about his good deed. I could’ve taken advantage of the guy’s ignorance and broken the law.
Instead, I just let him drive by me, shaking his head in disbelief.
I can’t help but think how there are times that we deliberately do things we know we shouldn’t do just to let someone else feel good about themselves. You know, those little lies.
And here is the temptation. I think that there is some balm in thinking we are sacrificing ourselves for the emotions of someone else.
But, I think we just end up breaking the law.

Currently reading :
Great Expectations (Modern Library Classics)
By Charles Dickens
Release date: 13 February, 2001

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January 19, 2007 – Friday


God longs for others, his creation so thathey may be his in recognition and in deed. As ,uch as we find our worth in him, we are supposed to make each other feel worthy. No one should feel humiliated because of us.
Judgemenis not ours to give. But correction is. Correction should finally end in love and worth – where as judgement will inevitably lead others to destruction. Grace and correction walk hand in hand, while judgement is grace’s enemy.

Currently listening :
The Devil And God Are Raging Inside Me
By Brand New
Release date: 21 November, 2006

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January 18, 2007 – Thursday

Gimme Shelter

If someone seeks refuge or saftey or healing or forgiveness from me, who am I to deny it?

I was once running for shelter and safety and forgiveness and did I not receive. I have recieved much and seem to give out so little to those that need it the most. I am no physician to heal myself. I act most beggardly most of the time, and like a frightened child the rest.

I need not just strength of character, but strength itself. I need not just hope realised, but to help others in their hope.

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January 16, 2007 – Tuesday

Hey, jealousy

To burn with righteousness is to burn with the Lord’s jealousy, becasue He is jealous. However, there is a difference between my jealousy and His.

ref. Exodus 25:10,11

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January 14, 2007 – Sunday


Sorry, everyone for the inundation of blogs.. I finally have a computer for the temporary until my old one gets fixed (we tried laying hands, but apparently that doesn’t work on computers.). So, enjoy and comment what you will!

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January 11, 2007 – Thursday


“Pause you who read this, and think for a moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the foundation of the first link on one memorable day.”

~C. Dickens
Great Expectations, p. 65

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January 10, 2007 – Wednesday

The Power and the Glory

“It was for this world that Christ had died; the more evil you saw and heard about you, the greater glory lay around that death. It was too easy to die for what w as good or beautiful, for home or children or a civilization – it needed God to die for the half-hearted and the corrupt.”

-Graham Greene
The Power and the Glory, p.97

To see the face of God as Moses did, and talk to Him, face to face – is this something I would wish for? I long for God’s presence in a re-assuring way. But to long to see Him face to face is a scary position. I already don;t feel worthy enough so how could I handle that amount of direct judgement?


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January 9, 2007 – Tuesday


I long for freedom from my sin. My thoughts dwell on it as an alcoholic longs for a drink, or as a drunk longs for sleep. As oppurtunities come, I think of ways and means.
But my rest comes in the prevading, the invading of my thoughts of Christ. My rest and freedom lie in Him. He makes me perfect in my weakness. And in my weakness I search for Him.

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January 7, 2007 – Sunday

On Communion—

This little cup, so small and easily crushed holds so deep a draught that if it spilt, it would cover all the Earth, drowning all inhabitants.
And yet, how easily those drowning would dismiss it.

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January 5, 2007 – Friday

funny story

So, I’m subbing today at CDHS for Mr. Buck, a math teacher. Mathew Behr is in my Calc 2 class and he asked me if I remembered him.

“Yes, I do. You look different.”
“Well, it’s because my sister and I were adopted from two different families.”

“No, I meant you look different from the last time I saw you. You’ve grown up.”

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twelfth night

Ease my frustration; soothe my fears and agony with the balm of Your steadfast love. Deliver me from myself and remind me of Your capable and tender hands.

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January 4, 2007 – Thursday

Set me

Father, You are a provider and a help in all circumsatnces. I thank You for all You’ve done, and all You are going to do to provide for Your servant. Help me in all my endeavours that I may be a blessing to Your name. It is Your glory, and Your honor that I seek. Set my heart on a course so that I may love You with my entire being.

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January 2, 2007 – Tuesday

Thought He slay me

“Though He slay me, I will hope in Him,
yet I will argue my ways to Him.”

~Job 13:15

A statement of faith beyond any words I think I could say. Do I trust You, Father, enough to allow my death and hope for it, if it is Your will? Do I trust You would provide for my wife and kids when I am gone?
In the midst of my circumsatnces, do I still lead a life of worship?

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January 1, 2007 – Monday

too satisfied

I am too satisfiied. It has been a long time since I have known hinger.

I am sufferring because of it.

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December 29, 2006 – Friday


“Vision of God serves humility. Seeing God for who He is enables us to see ourselves for who we are. This makes us bold, for we see clearly what great good and evil are at issue, and we see that it is not up to us to accomplish it, but up to God – who is more than able. We are delivered from pretending , from being presumptious about ourselves, and f rom pushing as if the outcome depended on us. We persist without frustration, and we practice calm and joyful noncompliance with evil of any kind.”

~ D. Willard
The Great Omission, p. 100

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